I have not missed a day at the gym since I tweaked my back, likely a total of 3 days missed since January. Tomorrow I start a new challenge and I am stoked to start this new journey and see some serious results. I will post more about the challenge and stats soon. Happy Spring Ya'll!

March Resolution... the struggle is real

As I was on the elliptical the other night I was having a fight with myself, you ever get those feelings that you are not good enough? Even though I am a mother of 3 having had 3 c-sections, that 3 months after having Levi I am allowing myself to be crippled because of 7 or 8 lbs. Because I don't have abs yet, because I am not chiseled and cannot fit into my clothes the way I used to. I do button my pants up but the fit is different, its not like I haven't brought life into this world and solely nursed him, that is not where my mind goes, it goes directly to you are a fat ass who has bull dog arms a jiggly middle and a wobbly butt. It goes to the dark circles under my eyes from lack of restful sleep. It goes to the condition of my hair since I have not seen a scissor or color since October. It goes to not feeling adequate enough being a Stay at home mom to 3 kids of various ages and needs, feeling the need to earn an income even though my dream for the last 3 years has been to stay home with the kids. My internal struggle to be fit without obsessing over it is hard.  It wasn't until after I spoke to an unbiased 3rd party and told him of my woes that I felt a smidgen better. He reminded me that I have a beautiful family and home and that raising kids is hard, that I have made my marriage work for 10 years, that we have no debt other than our mortgage, that I am right where I need to be to make my next move for myself to be happy. It's an odd feeling to recognize that perhaps I am adequate and my journey is right on path. I am going to struggle but I am not giving up the fight to get where I want to be. I was reading the Power Path and really liked the message for March and as a mini resolution I am vowing to edit and delete all the negative self talk I do on the daily and focus on the positive. Its really a hard thing to do sometimes but I am grateful for all I have and where I am so I want to be open to what is around the corner to surprise me once again.

3 Months In!

So here it is 3 months into the New Year already! I have done a 90% job have sticking to my health goals and am proud of that. It was almost a year ago that I found out I was pregnant with Levi, hard to imagine.

Fri I did 30 minutes on the elliptical and a shoulder work out:

4 sets 12 X each

Seated overhead dumbbell press
Shoulder raise
Side lateral raise
Front raise
Bent over lateral
Behind the neck press

Saturday I did a combat class followed by a quick leg workout since my back is still not 100%

Linear hack press
Leg Curls
Incline leg press
Leg extensions

We celebrated my Grandma's 91st birthday yesterday and I made everyone something different to eat. I made Mulligatawny soup, Chicken Picatta, Cheeseburgers and mac for the kids, Mike made chicken wings and for dessert I made an amazing French Silk pie with a pretzel crust and my grams homemade whipped cream recipe. TO DIE. I didn't eat TOO much but I ate more than I should have and felt guilty again as soon as the last bite was swallowed. I kept up with My Fitness Pal and was only 100 calories off but I did not take into consideration all the tasting that went into prep or the 1/2 craft beer I drank.

Happy Birthday!

Mike ate 25 wings

Today I did combat class again and will start my normal routine again for the week but plan to add a yoga class to help my flexibility so I don't strain my back again so easily. I have a lot of work to do on my love handles and lower back and want to get a lot more definition in my arms and quads but since this is a blog to keep me honest here are my latest progress pictures and one of Lily smiling just to prove she does.

Dirty ass gym mirror